Saturday, November 17, 2001 "sianz arh..."

pagename's in inverted commas because it's a quote from my friend. everytime he messages me on msn, it's either "yo" or "sian". lol. we even played hangman. yes, over msn. wow. see how sian life can be? *haha* been crazy downloading songs. also don't know why i have the sudden... urge. #thinks of herbal clairol's advert# lol. watching temptation island now. season finale. watched the second and third episode, then sorta... gave up. *hehz* just wanna see the outcome. kinda confused now because i can't really hear what they're saying, and i'm not exactly concentrating... are andy and shannon staying together or what? bother. heck. why should i bother anyway? lol. petty freak. that's me. sorry kor. took that entry away. but i wasn't exactly feeling very good when you said that and i just wanna tell you how i feel. yeah, i admit i was wrong. jason, i'm ok! really didn't expect you to check out my page lehz... thanks anyway! *haha* got a big shock when you sent that msg and i immediately closed the msg window ya know... lol. but seriously, i think i only have myself to blame yar? sigh. now what? are billy and mandy sticking together?!??! *haha* not concentrating at all :Þ hee, i take a long time to add an entry... an average of like what, 30 minutes?? lol. multi-tasking and lack of concentration. sometimes i even forget i'm adding an entry... lol. well... feeling rather relieved now. think my plan worked out. wonderfully. *^_^* yay! so happy now. on my way to carrying out my resolution. wonder if i phrased that sentence correctly. heck. ;) oh, all the couples are together!!! *yay* lol. not my business anyway... nin-chan looked up at the sky at 11:44 p.m.

Saturday, November 17, 2001 what's with me

i just hate myself. been in a state of depression. since wednesday. since i received that sms. been crying a lot. why and why? suddenly remember what my friend once told me. but i just can't stop myself from crying. he sorta... asked me out. and i was sad all over again. why can't i go out? why don't i dare to ask my mum? she doesn't suspect a thing now, right? baka. cardcaptor sakura, hana yori dango. after that will be itazura na kiss. meiling likes syaoran, syaoran likes sakura, hanazawa likes toudou, tsukushi likes hanazawa, doumiyouji likes tsukushi. bother. nin-chan looked up at the sky at 02:40 p.m.

Thursday, November 15, 2001 zzzzz~

woke up at 9:15 a.m. today. when i had a workshop at 9 a.m. i think i rule big time man. broke the record, reached school at 10. previous record was 9:30 a.m. my friend says she wants to break my record. lol. didn't actually want to go to school, but my mum said it's a matter of principle... like i really care right? so paiseh-ed. *sigh* yeah, didn't sleep early last night... was doing my jigsaw puzzle. slept at 3 a.m. then today got qiu tian de tong hua, the earliest time i'll be sleeping is 1 a.m. wonder why people can have so many different views on that show. they either like (love??) it, or dislike (hate??) it. *shrugs* no idea. i'm more like on the fence... like the storyline but i think it's rather draggy. the whole show could have finished in like 10 episodes without all those draggy parts...haiz. gtg for dinner... argh. not hungry at all. *shrugs* kkaez, brb. *hoho* nin-chan looked up at the sky at 06:40 p.m.

Wednesday, November 14, 2001 mixture of feelings?

how to forget someone. suggestions? i can't take it anymore. what am i? a tool or something? this is the whole story: my friend sent me an sms today, and i was like damn happy (out of contact for a while), but know what he said? "can you ask [my friend] to sms me? i'm bored and going crazy" that's not exactly what he said, but that's the gist. he can't sms my friend because she uses her dad's handphone. i felt like i was being used. i mean, hello?! i felt damn pengz. i feel like cursing him to death now but i can't really bear to do it. i hope he doesn't visit this page. not like he will since he doesn't even have a heart. peh. i'm doing this in hope of forgetting him. way 1: think of all the bad things of this person and scold him for all you want, make him out to be as bad a person as can be in your mind. *shrugs* had a great time today. everyone turned up!!! we've got near full attendance... :) played basketball(boy do i suck in it) and a while of 'monkey'... ^^;; marked kor like shit for a while. *^5 to rl* lol. sorry horz~ ;) feeling rather lethargic today. slept for 1h after dinner. going to sleep (relatively) early today. whether i can sleep or not is a problem though. ^^;; started on a jigsaw puzzle. think my jigsaw piecing skills deteriorate a lot... *sigh* maybe i shouldn't have came online. got people to talk to then i cannot bear to go offline. *hehz* just jk. O_o chs server's down? can't access alvyn's and bingxin's blog. *shrugs* guess i better go now. but i don't think i'll sleep... lol. but i've got school tomorrow... sianz... hope the bacteria works out fine~ minna san, oyasuminasai! ^-^ nin-chan looked up at the sky at 10:20 p.m.

Tuesday, November 13, 2001 sianz

today's biotech workshop wasn't that bad after all. because they had hands-on and the experiment we did was... fun?? *hehz* but i could barely keep my eyes open while the woman "lecturer" was talking. slept at around 2:30 a.m. last night, woke up at around 7:20 a.m [my alarm clock (which is my hp ^^;;) rang 4 times btw]. that's barely 5 hours of sleep ya know... yeah yeah, i'm already used to sleeping at 2 a.m. and waking up at 6 a.m. but this is the hols yeah? sleeping patterns terribly upsetted. never take naps in the afternoon, earliest 2 a.m. sleep... my eye rings are like very dark and i tell you i really look like a panda. the eye rings are everywhere around my eyes, not only below my eyes. lack of sleep and water. luckily i wear spectacles, can cover up a bit, not so obvious. ^^;; lips cracking/bleeding, pimples popping up everywhere, eye rings worsen... all symptoms of lack of water!!! arh!!! but i just simply don't like water... don't ask me why. i can be super thirsty at home but i dun bother to go get myself a cup of water. reason: drink plain water arh? i rather go thirsty. also, too lazy liaoz. ^^;; i can just make myself a cup of ribena or whatever but i just simply can't be bothered to. i'm just lazy. tell me the importance of water someone!!! lol. *yay* jlpt's on 2nd of dec!!! just received the letter. i won't have to miss it! yes! but still, i will not enjoy my holiday. oh, and 2nd of dec happens to be nick cheung's birthday. ^^;; funny how i can remember these dates so well. and today, i just realised it's kimu taku's birthday. lol. oops. he doesn't like people to call him that. kimura takuya would be better. :) and realised yesterday was my primary school good friend's birthday... was a little sad after realising that. maybe i can't even say we were good friends because we lost contact immediately after she left for another school. just that... guess i only knew how to cherish her after we "parted". i think i mature a lot during secondary school, especially this year. *shrugs* may be a little thick-skinned to say that but i think it's rather true. lol. and... my friend said that to me too?? lotsa things happen this year you see... good things, bad things... *shrugs* all part of growing up, yeah? can't take it anymore. think i'll go take a nap. :) nin-chan looked up at the sky at 06:15 p.m.

Monday, November 12, 2001 lyrics + schedule

kor told me the name of the sun yanzi song i had doubts about. [refer to Sunday, November 11, 2001 09:16 p.m blog entry (archived)] tao wang. thank you. :) thanks for the lyrics too. gonna be busy this whole week. *sigh* but i'm spared for the weekend. *phew* went out with friends today and watched the princess diaries. nice movie. :) wanna watch legally blonde. but guess i won't have the time to do so. biotech workshop tomorrow, thursday and friday. scip gathering on wednesday. work experience aka work attachment from 19th to 30th nov(even have to work on one of the saturdays). gold coast trip i do not want to go for from 7th to 13th dec. darn it i even have to spend my birthday there. my fifth time to australia, third time to gold coast, second time spending my birthday there. and it's like totally different this year because my sister's not with me so i'll most probably end up a loner, and i'll have to miss my jlpt (japanese language proficiency test). what bad luck i have. alvyn was supposedly bo liao so he's got a new blog page. but he's just "playing around so the stuff there will be weird". here it is. not really done yet, but just go take a look. =) you can see he's still feeling gay... ^^;; tomorrow got school... *whines* as my friend said, holiday still need to go to school, damn sianz... wasted manz... and i just realised something today. not all sec3 students have to attend the workshop, only compulsory for biology students. kaoz... seriously want to quit biology manz. and if i cannot continue taking japanese next year i go and zhuang qiang liaoz. hopefully they make an exception lah, or i study for three years all go down the drain. iya na koto, mada tsuzui teimasu. *sigh* nin-chan looked up at the sky at 11:38 p.m.