Tuesday, September 25, 2001
Sad. No SMS, no telephone, no ICQ. Never been in contact for more than a day. ARH!!!!!! SMS!!!!! Yatta!!!! Get what I mean now? It's like...kare seems to be manipulating my emotions. That's all I gotta say. Hafta pia for Chinese. Argh. Wish me luck. =Þ >^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 08:23 p.m.

Tuesday, September 25, 2001

So happy!!!! MY sis signed my GB!!! *hugs sis* Thank you!!! =) Luv ya...=) Well, in school library now, not going for recess, one reason is to save up, another is to come online to update my diary and check my guestbook....Me never go online a thome for two days liao....But so sad, here cannot check email.....i_i Bet when I DO go online at home and check email, there's gonna be tons of JUNK MAIL.... *WAHAHAHA* STILL haven't started studying yet.....*haha* Been feeling very tired nowadays, seriously don't know why.... So once I reach home, if it's early, I take a nap first, if not, I just go to sleep early....*haha* Calculating CA2 marks, bet it's like a BIG drop from CA1.... Then, SA2's gonna be an even BIGGER drop...*WAHAHAHA* And I'm actually...erm...happy....*haha* Wonder if it's just a cover, a form of pretence...*sigh* Oh my, I think I'm getting into my *ahem* suicidal mode....That's what my friends say. They say I sound suicidal. Then, when they see me in school, I still look the same, the crazy old me, and they start wondering..Well, all I can say is I guess I'm just different inside-out...And I don't wanna affect those around me by showing them a sad face....=) Aki, it's ok. I'm just like you. But my advice is, if you feel that you have to show it and let it out, then just do it. You can come talk to me, yup...=) Hope I can be of some help...=) My emotions been affected by a certain someone: ano ko, aka kare. I cried the whole night last night. Yes. Kare wa, SMS wo okuranai shi, denwa mo shinai shi, kanashii. I don't know why the hell I'm like so so so affected by kare, and now although I still claim that watashi wa kare wo suki dakedo, ai janai, I'm super, and I DO mean super, confused as to whether or not suki wa ai ni natta. Sorry if you don't understand. I don't want kare to know, you see. And if my Japanese is off somewhere, pardon me. Talking about Japanese....Sensei gave us some quizzes to do yesterday during lesson time, and I found out I truly suck at it. Yes. And now, I feel like putting ALL my time and effort on Japanese before the EOY starts, but I HAVE to concentrate on Geography, since it's like: 1) The only humanities I can fall on, as SS is somewhat "unstudy-able", and I truly suck at Lit; 2) and I did super badly for mid-year. SUPER. Wanna know how bad is that? 42 for SA, and 48 for CA and SA combi. And it's IS upon 100. =Þ Then, I really don't know how. As a matter of fact, I'm not studying yet. And even if I DO start for geography, chances are 99% of me will be somewhere else. Can only concentrate on Japanese. And it's my saviour. It's the ONLY thing I can fall back on. And I guess I won't be able to continue taking it next year. "Iya na koto, mada tsuzu teimasu" --Extracted from my ugly duckling script, by erm....me. =Þ *sigh* Have to write letter to Kae. Oh, the sigh was NOT for that. I would love to reply your letter, dear. I was laughing when I was reading it. My friend was even implying "Is it a letter from your bf?".....and I was like giving her the "duh" look....*haha* Think I'm on a high today, not very sad. =) Yay!!! *haha* Ja. >^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 12:33 p.m.