erms, anyone still reads this blog? if so, anyone wants gmail? 1GB of storage space so you never have to delete your mails.. haha. just post a comment if you want. =)
heehee. haven't been adding an entry for a LONG time. =X just wanted to share an interesting quote i read on the newspapers:
"babies do not ask to be born. so make sure you can afford to be the best parents they can have."
now that's a good enough reason to blame my parents and hate them. =D
hey you fucking retards out there, you may have a nice time eating your own shit, but please be kind enough to BLOODY CLEAN UP THE MESS YOU MADE FOR OTHER PEOPLE. if you're reading this, don't worry, you're safe, and the pms bomb will not hit you. =)
for you: *huggles* thanks for being there, listening to me shout and cry and offering me advice. you're the bestest. =)
heyhey! i'm back! (never was gone anyway =p) hohos. not back for good though.
hmmm, making a new layout for this blog! it'll take forever i suppose. since i'm using the comp like once every other day.. and i don't stay on for more than 1 hour.
erms, nothing much to say actually? but that doesn't mean nothing's happening. lots happened actually. just that it's not convenient to write it here. not yet. in 29 days time, when i'm liberated, then i'll write everything down here. woohoo! can't wait man. esp when i can see a group of 44 people suffer after that! ;) stupid bunch, i must say. heh. but oops, am i not talking about myself? lalala~
been coping pretty well.. been doing homework. =) with the exception of maths. which isn't exactly very good. since maths requires practice. as if i care~
somehow when u dun care about everything, at least not so much, life will be muchmuch easier on you.. just that you have to be able to do so first. and there must be some things impt to you that you want to look forward to, or else life will lose it's meaning lah. eg. my sister's coming back! and will be staying for almost 3 months! =D hohohohoho. =) as i always say, wo shi xin fu de xiao nv hai! ^_^
and when alot of things wear you out, you'll take note of the minor details of life and realise how much happiness they bring into your life. =) i love you.
k. decided that i should add an entry. though now i really have like no mood to blog.. the feeling has totally died off. somewhat similiar to how i've become much less attached to the comp, and only go online (ie log onto MSN) when i have to talk to someone. good. =)
the hols. guess it was a good thing to have BT before the hols. at least can slack during the hols. hehz. and now i'm on a crazy downloading spree. Naruto. hee. cuz dAnieL was like hooked onto the manga, and my sis said it was nice too, nicer then RK and One Piece. so i'm d/ling to see how it is. the first 3 episodes seem nice. hee. :) just hope that this craze will go away after the hols or i'm dead.
council. elections going pretty well. lotsa nominees man. let's hope the next council will be a better one. and let's hope more people will want to join WELCO! though i doubt so since most of the people look like the rara type, ie the type who'd want SnR and ECACO posts. =( or EXCO posts lah, which is what everyone (almost) aims for once they get into council. i mean, who would want to slack their butts off without (much) recognition? k i'm incoherent.
(ir)responsibilities as student + councillor. made a to-do list of homework. no mood to start doing. argh. i'm supposed to study! because i think the BT was made to be before hols so that we can jue2 xing3 and pia during the hols. (quite contradictory to what i had said i know) whatever. just hope i get most things done or i'll really be dead when sch re-opens. not to mention i'm putting off lotsa council stuffs. passing down report, treasury report, initiation plan, calling of pple (again! >.<) and whatever else. sigh.
seems more like a journal than a blog? who reads this these days anyway. nothing of anyone's concern. sigh. guess pple are just busybodies? just like how blog-surfing seems to be the only thing i do when i come online. but then again, that's what blogs are for? k n/m. and i thought a blog could improve my command of the language. too idealistic. >.< n/m. getting a B would be =D for me.
fuck this shit.
1) i hate irresponsible people (me included)
2) i hate people who call my hp when they should always call my house to see if i'm at home first, instead of wasting my hp bills. i shall waste everyone's hp bills from now onwards and not make an effort to check up their house number when i know they might be at home.
3) i hate people who do last minute work, or even not have stuffs ready at the moment they need it, esp when it affects other pple (me included again).
4) i hate parents who think that their children are still one year olds and cannot do anything by themselves. to me, parents are just there to support their children whenever they need. (ie their children's slave) who asked them to give birth to their children and make them suffer in the first place? they had their fun and so they must suffer now. and no i will NOT support my parents or give them a good life in future. you screw up my life, i screw yours up. fair enough. =)
5) i hate everyone. (except him and my sis)
6) i hate myself even more.
have tons to say but dunno how to. woke up screaming today. hehz. if i didn't remember wrongly i had a nightmare. of something real. i just thought of how much things i had to do while sleeping and was stressed out. wow. but i did feel better after screaming. haven't done it in a longlong time. but today was a shitty day overall.
haven't blogged in a longlonglong time? hehz. won't be blogging often. so pple who are still reading this can just forget about coming here and reading the shit stuffs i post. yay. one more step towards my antisocial lifestyle. =) (this blog layout has finally served its purpose)
i tried to change i really did.. and i tried very very hard.. even i can feel it.. but why do you always have to compare me with who i was, and expect things to stay the same? always assuming things.. hurting me..
u said you'll try to change.. you said you're already doing so.. but why can't i feel it.. all i can feel is you rating every other thing at a higher importance than me.. your comics, your class, your friends.. but i guess you really have tried.. by spending more time with me in sch and looking for me whenever u know i'm around.. *hug* i love you.
for those who're bored or want to relieve stress.. click
here. damn lame but fun and addictive. haha. try to hit the penguin as far as u can. hehz. my high score stands at 323.5. =D
[for those who've realised the sudden change in mood in this entry, it's cuz i talked to my friend in the middle of it and thought things through.. hehz. =)]
time passes so fast.. it's only now that i really feel one year has past.. since huangcheng.. saw the J1s today.. and just felt like joining them in this year's huang cheng.. but it's impossible.. haiz. 2 of the actors are in the CT i was in charge of.. hee. that's good.. and a lot of them are in backstage.. LEP class mah.. haha. and i just thought of so many things.. maybe i really just think too much.. too much for my own good.. =(
it's impossible to have everything u want.. it's the same for everything in life.. there're always choices to make.. whether you realise it or not.. i made the choice to run for council, hence i cannot relive huangcheng.. likewise for that.. i made a choice, that's why i'm trying so hard to make sure everything goes well.. too hard.. that sometimes i just want to give up at the slightest thing that disappoints me.. and the thought of giving up always crosses my mind.. why.. but if i don't even try, then what's the difference with truly giving up.. sigh.. confusing? haha.. *shrugs*
so much internal stress building up.. cuz of relationships, unbought birthday presents, schoolwork, uncopied lecture notes, locker shit, loss of money, myself.. sigh. but a nap always makes me feel better.. cuz i could run away for that one hour or so.. =) shall watch one piece later if i can't take it again.. =)
[edit]and if you really care, you'd add a comment on this. [/edit]
"let the melons hit the floor!"
yay, finally have the energy to blog.. =) but nothing much to say now 'cause i've forgotten what i had wanted to say? hehz. =)
orientation went well i guess.. =D but i thought that this year's J1s were a bit less onz? like during war games.. wah lau, the guys just go to the toilet in the middle of the game to wash themselves up lor.. and everyone were like so clean at the end.. not like the guys last year.. all covered with mud. =D and the field smells the same?! >.< but it was still fun =)
dance sessions were all tiring but fun i guess.. haha. dance partner and i were running around the second dance session trying to teach two groups of pple.. and as usual, everyone loves WWW.. haha. =)
campfire.. s6 rocks! hee. we won the best flag competition! to be specific, my junior class won it! though i don't even know them.. haha. but the mass dance session was like O_O with so little space and the soft music..
don't want this to end.. i rather be tired everyday doing the things i did the past few days then to go back to daily routine of school.. =(
"when the banana says who rocks, you say: S6 ROCKS.."
never felt so strongly about s6 before.. :) S6 ROCKS!!!
12 signs a guy is worthy of your love:
1. You want to bring him home to meet your parents.
2. Things that usually drive you nuts or gross you out suddenly seem trivial. For example, if he's sitting there unabashedly picking his nose, and you don't want to break up with him right there, that's a pretty good sign you're in love.
3. He's a great friend.
4. There's a big grin on your face whenever you think or talk about him.
5. You can count on him. He's consistent, trustworthy and honest. He keeps promises and commitments.
6. He sticks around while you wait for the other shoe to drop. And while you stall, figuring this is too good to be true and are sure that he'll eventually mess up or turn into a troll, he just keeps getting better.
7. You're covered with hives, sitting in your Aveeno bath, and he asks you in all seriousness to marry him.
8. You've given up your "drama queen" crown. Since you know where you stand with him and are comfortable in the relationship, you don't need it anymore.
9. He makes the relationship a priority.
10. He doesn't run away if the two of you disagree. Rather, he'll be there to talk about it and work through it.
11. He holds your hand in public.
12. Your connection is so strong that you don't even have to ask yourself this question.
about 3 or 4 out of 12? and i find it rather true.. sigh. i hate this. >.<
yay. i finally got to archiving that freaking page of mine. hee. from 28th dec 2002 to 26th dec 2003. woohoo. =)
if i can, i wanna try to get mashimaro back up. =( didn't get to archive it. (although all my archived entries are considered gone because they're filled with crosses -_-) but it's impossible in the near future. with O1 and CNY. then should be some rest. since CNY is so early. =D but who knows what we'll have to do for 30th anniv? nothing much i hope. and there's elections. oh, welfare week? then block tests are before the holidays. thanks dudes. i'll definitely try my best not to screw up too badly. a high F would be good enough. =p
i made a new friend today. =)
physics test on tues. =) thanks for the farewell gift, john hobuckle. happy studying yar? -_- bleahz.
btw, if i feel happy (no i won't clap my hair) i'll be taking pictures of bdae and xmas presents and putting them up.. =D never received so many presents since 12 i think.. =)
i love you.
betsuni v.11 | antisocial? it's a choice
betsuni's back again! =)
feeling antisocial recently, thus the picture. or rather, i CHOOSE to be antisocial. :)
made for 1024*768; looks squashed up on 800*600
= girl =
chooses to be a pessimist because if things turn out differently from what
she thinks, it'd be good; but if things turn out the way she thinks, it's
expected so even if it's something bad, she'd be prepared for it.
has a lot of questions but seldom asks them.
anti-social? it's really a choice. to her.