betsuni v.10 memories [omoide]
featuring shanks and luffy from one piece
lyrics from stefanie sun's song haipa in the background
thinking of him while making this layout
and finally... an anime layout, and it's ONE PIECE! ;)
a layout which shows that i'm trilingual. Japanese, Chinese and English!
lol. enough of narcissism. =|
p.s: if you know where those images come from, please tell me... ^^;
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IE 4.0 and above? 5.0 and above? ^^;
1024 * 768 resolution (looks very crammed up in 800 * 600)
true colour 32 bit (dang it looks different on all three of my computers
-_-; colour should be closer to ORANGE and does not look like yellow at
all i_i)
i'll be gone tomorrow... going to japan... still don't know if i should be happy or sad... good thing is i get to miss my e-maths, a-maths and geog mock paper. bad thing is i'll be getting them as homework when school reopens. good thing is i can relax myself and play in japan, bad thing is i most prolly have to bring my homework there to spoil my holiday, and pia like crazy when i get back.
if i have a choice... i wouldn't want to go to japan. not now. i know a lot of pple in scip 2001 are envy of me, but i just feel that this is the wrong time...
i don't feel like a sec4. not yet. the Os still seem far. very. homework undone, revision left aside. wished i was headed for hell.
yelch. Germany is so rough. 8 yellow cards even before halftime. and only 21 people on the field. eek. the referee's so damn strict. =/ and i think Cameroon's getting rough to get back at Germany. nice game. :D crucial game, i suppose. i'm for Cameroon, anyway. =P
France is so lousy. they actually lost to Denmark. and they didn't score a single goal at all. bah. World Cup champions you said?
i feel like i'm a world cup reporter. lol. i guess i don't have much to blog about. going on hiatus. soon. =P
was kinda out the whole day and am super shagged now... >.<
Korea tied with USA. =/ but Belgium tied with Tunisia too. :D this means that if Japan wins Tunisia (and they better do *prays*), they'll be first in the group, and will not meet Brazil in the second round, because the second will meet them in the second round. this means good news!!! bah. let's see when Japan wins.
eeeeeeeeeek. i've actually become so concerned with the world cup. *shakes head* this is baaaaaaaaad.
but on the other hand? i've started on my homework. be it only *1* piece of tons of homework. =P
japan won!!! woohoo~~~~~~!!! eek. when have i been affected with the world cup virus? (aka the virus which causes the world cup fever) anyway, inamoto rocks. yeah. end of story.
am i right to say that we all live to die? if so, then why are we all struggling so hard for? to get a better life? and then? to die. everything ends with death.
i hate moe. they allowed me to continue with ten subjects. just when i thought they wouldn't. but at the very least... biology has started to get fun. at least we're done with those plants and are onto the human part. :D
i think i'm really mad. maybe it's what happened yesterday. but i guess it's most probably just me.
i really don't know if i can be determined but i really don't want to study. not at all. perhaps only for japanese. which is super ironic. cuz it's my best subj. =/ but it's my favourite too so there. argh.
great. hana yori dango is starting. time to just relax. whee.
i don't know how to describe how my day went. it was just totally different from yesterday, i suppose.
since i left my friends after getting down the bus, i couldn't stop but just think. about a certain someone. and waiting. for something that may never happen. but it did. and i cried. but it all ended too soon.
i was given hopes just so that they could be smashed, leaving me miserable and defendless. i didn't know what to say. i didn't know what there was to be said.
it's so hard to keep a relationship going. and i'm always the one who puts an end to everything. too impulsive? irrational? i don't know. i wished i knew. maybe, just maybe, i should just stay contented with the fact that i haven't lost her... i_i if only tears are really the rinse water of an unhappy heart...
it has been a long time since i've had such a great time... =)
school ended at 10 am today, and i went to PS with two other friends... the feeling was very nice... it was one of the few times when i would smile and not sulk when i think of the past... actually, i think it's the only time i've felt that way... :)
then, i went to J8 to watch darkwaters with a group of friends... was supposed to celebrate this friend's birthday but i think we didn't do much for him... -_- and it was supposed to be an scip gathering but it looked more like a mini chinese high gathering. -_-;;
anyways, darkwater was scary alright. but i think the ring would have been so much scarier if i had watched it in the movie theaters, and not in my friend's house in bright daylight with adverts in between and a kid bugging people, making lotsa noise. lol.
well, after the movie, we went to the arcade... then me and my friend said we wanted to go to the toilet and we went to get two small cakes for our friend. it was pretty funny. quote from my friend "you people said you went to the toilet and you got chocolate cakes back" lol.
anyway, we had a great time in the arcade... we played daytona and it was really nice, when the whole row of eight cars are driven by people you know... :) i was shouting like mad, going "who banged me??!!" and things like that... lol. ^^; and by the end of the game? the cake we got our friend was, erm, just destroyed. ^^;;
then, we took a group neoprint... turned out pretty nice. ^.^ simply wonderful. ^^;
all in all, it was just a great day... really hope that the next time we have an scip gathering, more people will turn up... but i guess that'll be after the O Levels? [shrugs] can't really help it i guess. different priorities... really missed the time when we just came back from Japan, and everyone was soooo enthu and we nearly always had almost full attendance for gatherings... :) well, at the very least, now, quite a lot of people have lessons on wednesday, so we still get to meet each other... though some people are from the 2.30 class and some are from the 4.30 class... just those small talks before lessons is nice... i guess even a 'hi' and a hug is heartwarming, cuz you know that you aren't forgotten yet... and that the scip spirit still runs in their blood. hee. but i guess if i weren't in a class with all the tchs guys who went japan, i wouldn't be so enthu... it's seeing them every monday and wednesday that reminds me of those wonderful times we spent in Japan... :D
to all of scip, you've been a great bunch. thanks a million for all those beautiful memories. quote from daryl: scip, yesterday, today, and tomorrow... ^_^
i don't want to be alone. i don't want to start thinking and end up tearing.
i want to be alone. i want to think about things and cry it all out.
that's what i'm thinking at the moment.
i'm losing my friends. intentionally. i love to be able to depend on someone when i'm down, but i don't like it when i don't do anything for them.
i think i pissed her off. just yesterday, i promised her that i'll be there and sorts. and today? i told her i can't be her friend. i don't know what i was thinking about.
i wished i was a loner. so many things happened today. no. it's just me who thought about a lot of things today.
dc, thank you. but you really don't need to say anything to me anymore. i'm just stubborn. too stubborn for my own good.
i want to go into deep sleep. i really hate myself for being a coward. for running away from reality. for not being able to stand in the middle of a road and get knocked down. for just being so me.
so i see more bloggers who're from my school. kinda came to me as a surprise. =/
holidays end today. lol. it's back to school again tomorrow. and i've got maths olympiad. >.< and it won't wrok if i don't revise, but i'm not going to. bah.
the slacker in me just won't go away. terrible. and i've given up on my new layout. it's driving me crazy though i've done minimal stuffs. [pulls hair]
i need an impetus. i need to prioritise my time. [kicks computer] boy do i hope you're spoilt. ^^;;
thanks to the people in my school taking express chinese, who'll be taking their chinese o levels tomorrow, i don't have remedial tomorrow, and that means i have one more day to slack and get my homework done. >.<
wahahha, got a digi cam... i love my sister. since she came back two weeks ago, my dad has been giving us money to shop 'cause my sister needs money and i shop with her. :D and she wants a digi cam so my father bought two... but the main reason is 'cause it has webcam~ :)
was at singapore food expo today, supposedly helping out. =P was pretty disgusted by the way this woman in the next store handled the food(yam paste aka orh-ni ^^;;). bah.
i'm addicted to the comp. just stuck to it for no reason. argh.
i feel like i'm being taken for granted. and maybe that's 'cuz i take people for granted too.
i just look around me, look at the things she did, think about the both of us... it just feels so weird. what right do i have to say that she's not exactly close to whoever or whoever, when i'm not even close to her?
there were times when i just told myself to give up. when i told myself that we both don't deserve each other's friendship. when i told myself that losing her as a friend is no a great loss. she can be so aloof at times. and it really makes me wonder. if you're pissed at me, just jolly well say it; if you're pissed for anything and just wanna be left alone, then say it out, don't try to piss people off and make them feel the same way as you.
the world's so bloody screwed up with the type of people who just make life difficult for you. and i'm just so tired of being in contact with all these people. i just want to get along life the way i want it to be. [shrugs]
[opens adobe photoshop and editpad] >.<
just back from the prize presentation ceremony at MOELC. woo, the food there is nice... :D
well, i saw her there. (she's quit blogging already). weird feeling. ok, i recognise her face, she doesn't know me at all. whee. singapore is small. very. it's like i saw him last time at J8. i_i pple here, pple there. how do we know it if we see someone whom we know online only? [shrugs] not making sense, am i? =P
yes, it's the last day of school today... though got hols no hols won't make any difference to me... hoepfully i can really get down to doing something. :)
happy holidays! ;)
sometimes, i feel like a freaking idiot. i have this feeling i'm being a little too... objective. and i don't know if it's good or bad. and it really bothers me what the definition of a friend is. -_-
bah. my results rock. MSG of 3.00, L1R5 of 14. and my ranking? 110-120. in the whole course of my studying life, i've never got lousier than a 100. make that 75. or 50? whatever. just trying to emphasise the fact that i didn't do well. =/ but wait. the darn school didn't add in my jap marks. :D but it won't beautify my report book any furthur. ^^;;
on the other hand... we won netball interclass!!! the win over 4PR was rather unexpected? my guess is they were a little too full of themselves? [shrugs] but it was a good game alright... :)
wow. i was looking at alvyn's gb, and i realised that there're actually quite a number of sec3 who blog in my school... never knew that blogging was so popular in my sch. ^^;;
argh. gonna get back report book tomorrow. and i don't know what my teacher will say to my father. esp since i wrote "i don't want my parents to know anything about me" when she asked the class what she would like us to tell our parents. =/ bah.
well, on a lighter note... interclass netball tomorrow! think we can get 3rd? bah. with me around? don't think there's much hope in getting placed. >.< must brush up my skills. in one day. ^^;;
lotsa homework. too much for me. and school the whole month? wtf?? whatever. gonna accept the fact that i am a sec 4 student. lol.
today's jap lesson rocks. four girls. that's all. private tuition anyone?? wahahha.
blogging has lost its meaning for me. i_i
today's japanese class was nice... was sms-ing half of the time. wahahha. bet sensei must be pissed with me. can't be bothered.
it was like, only the girls were present... cuz all the boys are going to china. wahahhaha. yeah. reminded me of last year, when all the boys in my class had to go to the track and field comp or whatever. wheeee~~~ and it's gonna be the same case on wednesday! yeah! we rule. ^^;
dang i left my file in school. but it's a good reason not to do homework. just when i feel like doing them. -_- and i think i'm gonna flunk for my bio prac today. and i'll be banned from taking bio. >.<
life sucks?
i'm unreasonable. i have to admit it. i really hate my straightforwardness. i wish i can just exercise more self-control and really think before i say/do anything.
today is a damn f-ed up day. good thing i was with someone i can depend on. [winks]
and i'm so dead? i have a crush on him. but i cannot. i can't have a crush on anyone, as a matter of fact. i_i
and oh, forgot to mention: he's back! lol. one weird guy. quit blogging just to tell people he's got another blog lurking around somewhere, quit blogging again, and now he's back again. ^^;;
argh, there's biggy walky tomorrow. gonna wake up at like what, 5.30am? argh. [pulls hair] but hey, my school's got the biggest contingent there, with 600++ students and teacher doing the big walk... yeah~~~ we rule~ =P
dang the weather. it's so hot. i_i and because of that, i'm straining my relationship with friends by shouting at them, by being purely unreasonable. argh. i ought to change. or i'd have no more friends by monday. :D
whee. i skipped maths club so that i can do my homework and study for tests. but i'm slacking. >.< and i'd be going out afterwards... [pulls hair] this is getting on my nerves. eck.
kk. shall try to do my maths. eek.
just viewed the SCIP 2001 screensaver gerald sent us. it's really nice. and i cried. SCIP 2001. all my memories. memories i want, and yet wished i didn't have at the same time.
i guess we're more or less still quite bonded to each other. and i hope it'll always stay this way. i guess it's rather hard to make sure that the whole group remains as close as we were in Japan, but i'm contented how things are like now.
if i hadn't went to Japan, i wouldn't have changed. honestly, for the worse. i sorta succeeded in making myself a rather hardworking person, someone who striked a balance between work and play, just that i needed to have better time management.
the change started right after i came back. tons of homework piled up, and i started to procrastinate like i had never before.
then, i started to become a little bit more hardworking, but when the Japanese came? i gave up my room, and that marked my destiny. because i started doing work in the living room, i was distracted by almost everything. the tv's just in front of me, the computer is just a walk away. and till now, honestly, i still hate haruka. not her person, but more of what she brought to me and did not take away.
and did i forget to mention i got to know him? greatest mistake of my whole life. most foolish move made. if only i was a bit cleverer.
and now? i've become a slacker slacker than nyone else i know. just imagine sleeping at 2am everyday. and waking up at 6.45am. even if i have no homework to do and tests to study for, i'd just hang around online, doing God knows what.
i have a test tomorrow. a test which most probably will decide my future? if i don't do well for it, then it's a sure goodbye to biology. and i shan't talk more about it.
it's still early. there's still time. i hope. and i think i'm crazy, but i want to give thanks to these people... kae, carisle, val, xL, dc,
aki, SCIP 2001, esp those whom i'm still in contact with, and him.
for all the memories they've given me. for all they've done to help me. for all those encouraging words they've said to me. just for being there. or at least, for being there once.
thingies i got from my sistah:
1) mechanical pencil from HK
2) 1000 pcs winnie the pooh jigsaw (been a looooong time since i got a new jigsaw. and it's 1000pcs! ^O^)
3) Baby Blues comic book. yeah. my first one. ^_^
woohoo. still haven't studied for physics. i rule. yeah man. and oh, it's his birthday today. ^^;; happy birthday! if you ever come, remember to sign my gb! :D
i haven't told them yet. i just don't know how to. if only they didn't have to write a letter. then they would never have to know. guess i'll just tell my teacher i forgot to ask them to write the letter?
i'm really in a dilemma. i guess there's no harm trying for 10 subjects, but is that what i really want? i don't study for bio, i don't listen during lessons. i have totally no interest in it. so why do i still want to continue taking it? to prove that i'm better than my sister? it's no use. in the end, i'll just flunk everything and prove to the whole world that i'm just a useless fool.
perhaps, i just want to be special. everyone is taking 9 subjects. i don't want to be like everyone. this is one aspect where i can be different from the others. i really hope MOE approves of me taking 10 subjects. [prays real hard]
darn i have jap and physics test tomorrow, and i've only studied jap. and it'll be taken at around 4.30pm. and i actually don't even have to study for it? as for physics, i don't even know what will be tested, and it's the first lesson of the day. wonderful.
but i can't wait to go fetch my sister!!! one more hour to go... :D
heard liang jing ru's version of cai hong today. mayday aka wu yue tian's song. it sucked big time. she practically spoilt the whole song. ewww.
argh. i've got two tests tomorrow. and i'm only concentrating on one. and i haven't done my homework. and i've got to go to the airport at 11.30pm to fetch my sister home. this isn't good.
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海上扬起的涟漪，正是我为你撒落的友谊之花。a sentence from one piece manga book 23. dang i want to know what were the actual words, in japanese. one piece rocks.
woohoo~~~!!! i simply love one piece. ^^;; especially since i just bought book 23 yesterday... yeah~ just hope this layout turns out ok... ^_^
mothers' day is just another typical sunday to me anyway. not close to my mother, so there. been bitching about her big time anyway.
sister's coming back today!!! YEAH~~~ oh man... i've been waiting for this day for AGES!!! can't wait to go fetch her ffrom the airport... ^_^ still remembered that i was crying when she left for the airport the last time she came back while i was at home, preparing to go to school... i_i bah. love ya~ :)
