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Tuesday, September 11, 2001 |
=) Thought for a moment, of all the nice things in the world....
When I'm sad, disappointed with myself, I know there'll always be someone around, and it's a great consolation.... So maybe I shouldn't be so upset with myself after all. Take a positive outlook into life. Yupz~
Nothing much. Got hw to do. =) Oh, thanks to all who have been around me, all these while, all my life, especially during this year....^-^
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 09:20 p.m.
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Monday, September 10, 2001 |
| I hate myself.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 12:04 a.m.
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Sunday, September 9, 2001 |
Hmmm....been quite some time since I added an entry? Cuz I think something that happened these few days made me a much more happier person....=)
Got like TONS of undone hw. Haven't been touching any of them since the holidays started. It's gonna be a sleepness night for me. Heck. I'm so sick of school and stuffs, I'm not gonna bother myself with it. To make myself a happier person, I'm just gonna think of all the good things in life. Be a optimistic person.
Made a new friend, though me never seen his face before. We knew each other for barely a day and we could talk over the phone for like 2 hours...that's totally remarkable, I guess. And we sms each other whole day, talk cok...*haha* I wonder if we are like Daryl and her best bf, without the sad part....
Kaez, cannot spend too much time here. Hafta go and pia hw, study Japanese, and TRY to get some sleep.....*sigh*
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 10:48 p.m.
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Wednesday, September 5, 2001 |
Yoz~~~ Nothing much to write, just adding an entry for the sake of doing so. *haha*
Been slacking big time....SO SAD!!! But I ain't doing anything to help myself.....>< Darn it. Oh, thought of what I want to write.
Just hope I can get over every single guy I like/d, and keep my life free of guys as from now. I got bitten once, bet I'm definitely shy now. Before I fully recover from sustained injuries (haha), I'm gonna TRY and put ALL my effort onto studies, and forget that such creatures classified as men exist on earth...=) yay.
But I don't think I can do it. >< Cannot discourage myself. I CAN DO IT!!! =)
Quite pissed with this guy. =Ş That's all
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 10:45 p.m.
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Monday, September 3, 2001 |
I'm fine now...=) I didn't think about him for one day, guess I can do it without him. Sorta pissed with him in some way anyway....^-^
Then, me thought of the previous him....*sigh* Still cannot get over him. Then still had to go sms him, for nothing.
It seems like this week is gonna be a slacking week for me. Don't think I'll ever hit the books if it isn't neccessary...Then again, WHEN is it neccessary??? *haha*
Yun, I went to your blog, I didn't see anything...And do you want me to link to your new blog website? Cos from your old blog, it seems as if you don't want people to know your new blog webby.....And your new blog IS the scarlet one, yar??? E-mail me to answer to all my questions, k? =)
Nice day today. Smiled as I recalled the past. Not really the past lah, but the recent past....What the eck am I talking about? I have no idea either. *haha* Know what this means? I'm back to my normal self! =)
Ranmmy, if you come here, can I post the poem you gave me here?
Betsuni. ^-^
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 09:15 p.m.
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Sunday, September 2, 2001 |
Ok, So I guess I don't like him. I shouldn't, or rather. Can't really say I gotten over the previous him also....Just talk to him over icq and he is now all over my mind again...>< I really am confused. *sigh*
Ok. I DON'T like him. Hmph. =) Yeah. Somehow, I still like the previous him, and I also like the now him....Are you all there reading even more confused than I am???? Sorry.....
This hols gonna be damn...>< Cannot enjoy. Tomorrow still got school.....*sigh*
So.....nothing else to add. Betsuni. =) (just for information, betsuni means nothing)
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 10:38 p.m.
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Saturday, September 1, 2001 |
I want to cry. I can't help but keep thinking of him. I didn't dare convince myself I liked him until he kept popping up into my mind. He even made me forget about him. Too many 'him's. Sorry, but I don't think it's exactly very convenient to state names. =)
I wonder if he'll ever know. I don't even know if I've been dropping hints unknowingly. What if he comes across this page? Will he know it's him I'm talking about? *shrugs* Does it matter? All I want is him to be happy. He does not need to know I like him. He likes someone else, and I hope he and the girl he likes can work out. ^-^ I just feel happy when he talks to me about his problems. I just want to help him in whatever way I can. When he's happy, I;m happy for him.
Life's a sad one. I don't like it. Why do I always have problems of the heart? And it's always me who's suffering cos I'm always thinking and worrying, over practically nothing(meant to be a pun, for those who know). >< I so wanna die.
Kor, if you ever come here, just wanna say sorry and tell you that I guess the whole lot about death penalties didn't really work. The jumping down from a building causing yourself to be paralysed and others dead didn't work. Nothing did. I'm so keen on dying. I ca't wait for that day to come. But the more you anticipate, the more it won't come, yar? *sigh* I'm getting a little out of my mind.
I can't take it anymore. This is the worst diary entry here. I'm just too disapoointed with myself. I never do the things I set goals for. I always end up doing other unneccessary things. This can be one good example.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 11:12 p.m.
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Thursday, August 30, 2001 |
Harlowz minna.....Sianz can.....
One more school day to holiday, but basically can heck care about school already...^o^ But holiday also nothing great. One week only....>< Then must mug....
I can't stop but think of a certain someone..... I gone case already.... I really like him and hate him at the same time.... He's caused such a big change in me, even I can't really believe it. *sigh* I have to forget him but I don't want to. Cried when I was reading my diary last night before I slept. I really wish to turn back time. Everything that happened in the past......I want to relive it.
Heck. Just don't think about him, yar? Trying.... And now I'm confused as to whether I like this other guy or not. >< Think so much also no use.....*sigh*
*haiz* nothing much lah. Eck.
P.S: Sign in my gb!!!!
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 10:19 p.m.
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Wednesday, August 29, 2001 |
Hiyaz...In school again. Funny why I always add entries while in school. Too lazy to do it at home. *shrugs* Heck
Two more days before the school hols start. Yay. But got quite a lot of homework.....And hafta use the hols to mug and do all the catching up work. Still hafta come back to school for extra lessons. ><
Starting to be a little crazy. Sleeping late sure doesn't help. Been sleeping at 1+am recently. Then eyes feel sore and tired....Can barely stay awake in school. Hate it.
Wonder how the hols would be like. Have this feeling I'll be going out almost everyday....Stay at home also won't do anything, yar? Might as well.....
Broke now. Bought a new handphone cover. Expensive, but i like it. =) Yupz....Skipping recess 'cos got no money to spend. *sigh* Never mind, treat it as a chance to diet....^-^
Betsuni.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 03:39 p.m.
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Wednesday, August 22, 2001 |
Harlowz~ Having A-maths lesson now....Hope teacher doesn't find out or I die. Heck. I think I'm half-dead already.
Will SCIP 2001 break apart? NO. And it never will. I believe in our friendship. believe we'll be going to Hamamatsu again next year after the O's. I believe we'll all get into HCJC and join the choir there (lol). I believe, in us. =)
May be going soon, better rush. Heck, end here lah. Luv ya people. ^-^
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 01:23 p.m.
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Wednesday, August 15, 2001 |
Thank you yun. ^-^ Hope you're OK now... Must take care. Wonder why everyone around me is falling sick.
I'm fine now, 'cos I finally got an answer from him, and I know what I always wanted to. Now, I'm a happy soul, and I don't think I still feel like crying. Or maybe, not as much, cos only one of my many problems is resolved. Anywaez, thank you. ^-^
It's nice to know there're a lot of people out there who care for you, and Yun, there're also a lot of people who care for you too. It's just that you haven't realised, or maybe they don't have the chance to show that they care just yet.
Got a test tomorrow, though it's rather minor, but still need to study. Yun, don't get angry with me, I haven't even touched my book.... There were some problems with me and my guest and my friend and her guest, so we had to talk it out, and I reached home at only 10:15pm. No kidding. Using the computer to type out SCHOOLWORK, then just add an entry. Gomen, but I'll try to Ganbatte. ^-^
Not much left to say. Gonna write some quotes I have in my diary, said by friends or came to my mind when I was erm, depressed.
~The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return~---Moulin Rouge
~Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened~---Yun and Daryl
~No man is worth your tears, and the one who is won't make you cry~---A classmate
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 11:46 p.m.
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Sunday, August 12, 2001 |
It's my grandfather's birthday, so there's a "party" going on at my house....>< Worse thing is, my grandfather's not even here. He's sleeping at home.....
Sejitsu, You is a Japanese. He's cute. A long jumper, and has six-pack muscles!!! ^o^ Sat beside him for about 2 hours for The National Day Parade!!! *_*
Been crying lots these few days. Sorta hate it, but I can't stand the feeling of wanting to cry but not being able to. Been writing super long diary entries (not here). So many problems I'm gonna die soon. Anyone who can't wait to see me die, good for you. I'm crazy once again.
Crapping all the way. Brain's starting to malfunction. *knocks head* Not waking up. *shrugs* What to do? Heck. Don't care about me, I'm starting to get really crazy. Darn.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 12:12 p.m.
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Wednesday, August 8, 2001 |
Hmmmm....Don't know what to say, just adding an entry for the sake of doing so...
Went to the beach, walked with kor, thought of many things, and cried for him for the first time of the day. Must try not to think of him for one day. Called him, guess the feeling's pretty much the same.
I love gatherings. ^-^ Can talk to everyone. Can also stay alone. Can see Yasunori, Takeo and You <---A name. Yasunori fell sick.....So sad. Hope he's alright. he's a nice guy. Smiles at me.....*_* And Aya is very sweet... Everyone is nice, basically, except for my guest lor....The grass is always greener on the other side, moon is always rounder etc. Nvm. One week++ more. Must ren3. Ganbare!
Nothing else to squeeze out. Feeling rather sleepy, gonna write my real diary first, then go orh²...Ja ne.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 11:50 p.m.
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Monday, August 6, 2001 |
Yoz~... In school Comp lab now....>< Got two tests tomorrow, and think I'm gonna die. Failed Bio once, so fail again also heck care already. Just pin my hopes on Physics.
Cried for one whole day, still can't stop crying when *ahem* comes to mind....Wonder how I can squeeze out so much tears. Must try to get over it. Arigatou to those who helped me and tried to console me. I can't say I'm fine, I don't want to bluff anyone and myself, but I'm....OK in the sense that you don't have to worry for me. ^^;;
I want my bolster!!!! ^o^ Me wanted to cry on my eh....12 year old bolster last night but it was in the arms of my Japanese guest!!! >< I never let anyone touched it and now, I have to let it be in the arms of an almost stranger!!!! Yucks. Know I'm damn bad lah, but at this point of time, I'm just damn pissed with my guest lor. I even curse her before I sleep, 'cos she's causing tons of inconvenience for me....*haha*
Swollen eyes now. Can't really stare at the computer screen for too long or they will hurt like crazy but heck. Doesn't matter even if I turn blind lah. It may even be good....^-^ I'm not thinking properly, so don't care about me if I talk cok.
Going for Japanese afterwards. Daniel's got a cute host. ^-^ but I don't think I'll look for any possible targets for the time being. Need some time.
Argh. Don't like life. Thinking of it, who does? *shrugs* Eck. Can't be bothered with anything liaoz. Slacking in my studies, not doing my homework, failing tests like it's nothing to me anymore....So, what matters to me now? *grinz* Obvious, right? =)
Well, nothing much to say. Nice day, ja ne, mata.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 03:41 p.m.
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Wednesday, August 1, 2001 |
Konnichiwa!!! Hmmm... Maybe it should be Konbanwa!!! ^-^
Ran my 2.4km today, so happy!!!
1) I didn't walk throughout the whole 2.4km
2) I actually got a 'B', and ran faster than 15minutes!!! (just for info, I just had to run a few secs slower last year to get a 'D', and I ran pass 16minutes...) But so sad, just 8 more seconds then I can get my precious 'A'....i_i nvm, try again next year. =)
Wah, two more days, and my friend from Japan will be coming over to stay!!! Cool. Wonder if she's nice, whether we can get along....=)
Kyou, watashi wa ki ni naru ano ko ni tegami wo ageta....
Glad I survived the three tests per day period. ^-^
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 08:13 p.m.
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Thursday, July 26, 2001 |
Hiz~ Feeling very relaxed these few days, cos got no tests, then very little homework, can do slowly...^-^ Good.
Must start to work super hard...Looking at my test marks now, I think this will be the first time my marks will deterioriate as compared to first semester....i_i Sad.
Starting to like school more and more. Weird. Die. I think I'm beginning to be a little bian4 tai4. How can I like school?!??!?!? Ewwwww.....><
Sorry for crapping around. Just want to update my blog but really don't know what to write....Maybe anyone who passes by can give me feedback as to what to add.... Seems like I'm promoting my guestbook. *hint* Now you all know what to do???*_*
Sore Ja.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 09:43 p.m.
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Tuesday, July 24, 2001 |
*ahemz* Second entry of the day. A bit cheong hei today eh? At home now....MMC was ok...at least the instructor was quite nice. Or maybe I can say that because I was actually listening?!??!?! Wanna be a good gal. Wait, then why am I still here????? >< Argh.
Hmmmm......Got no h/w today. Good. Maybe I should start studying for chemistry, physics, and chinese. Three tests on the same day. How wonderful. I just love my teachers, eh? *thinks for a while* Cannot be so sarcastic. Doesn't get you anywhere. ok. Will try to say true feelings next time. lol.
ne.....like got nothing to say anymore. Prefer my real diary. Can write essay like that. And can write about anything and everything. In any language, and however broken also nvm. But not like my English is very good here.....Hey, don't forget I failed for my compre. *ahem*
P.S: New layout under construction!!!
Thanks Yun !!! Luv ya! *hugs and kisses*
P.P.S: Seijitsu and Atlie, I can link to your webbys, right?
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 07:20 p.m.
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Tuesday, July 24, 2001 |
Hiyeezzzz....<----saying hiyee, but soon dozes off......Ok, shan't start with crappin ard. But not like I ever say anything that doesn't get classified into crap.....
Bad day. Failed English comprehension and A-maths test. English may be ok, 'cos it's not the first time and I never expect much from it. But A-maths....it's the first time I've ever failed a maths test....And I failed by quite a lot...I used to be like very good, nearly tops.....*sheez* Not the time to be proud of past achievements. Time to ganbatte.....><
MMC now. Hope that instructor dies. To h*ll with him. Wait, cannot be vulgar, no matter how sensored it is. Must learn to be refined.
Nothing to write. Hafta sieve out some entries. But I don't know how to. >< Sianz. K, going now. Thanks for visiting this site. ^-^
Pls sign my guestbook!!!
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 02:30 p.m.
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Saturday, July 21, 2001 |
Harlowz~~ >^.^< Had a loooong day.....Dance instructor was very nice today, didn't even flare up when I said I had to leave 45 mins earlier... Wonderful.
Yun, Did you like the problem solving workshop? I think it was FUN. ^-^ Weird me eh?
Seijitsu, aki didn't do anything to me. Nothing. Don't worry if I'm getting crazy. In actual fact, I'm starting to get gloomy the whole day...not as genki as before.
Atlie, thanks for your compliment...^-^ It encourages me a lot. I think I'll just update my blog everytime I come online, which is like everyday....^^;;
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 05:30 p.m.
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Friday, July 20, 2001 |
Minna-san, Konnichiwa!!! Think I'll hafta update this often....but looking at the lousy layout, it just turns pple off....Gomen!
I don't know what to write, so just crappin' around. Wanna thank anyone and everyone who passes by and spends their time here...I know it's weird, but pls do give me your comments. Just applied for the gusetbook. Hope it's ok. Everything is simple 'cos I don't know HTML and I may make the whole thing suck even more by "showing off" my skills....
Feel damn lousy.
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 07:27 p.m.
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Tuesday, July 17, 2001 |
Hisashibulinda!!!! Well, that's to anyone who passes by, unintentionally or intentionally.....i_i Thank you for supporting me all this while!!! *cries* I'm crazy again. Yes. I'm me again. ^-^
Feel so happy. >^.^< Nice face? Just thought it would look nice, yar? Also don't know what it looks like. Maybe it looks like me. *scratches head* Heck. Not like anyone cares. To anyone still reading up to this point....THANK YOU AND HARLOWZ!!!!!! ^.^
I know my page sucks. I can't use HTML. I may make my page even lousier. I guess it's better this way. I'll get Yun to change it sometime. I'll put up links when I have time. Maybe that will take forever. I never have time. *sigh* This is bad.
To atlie-san(if you ever come here)....This seems weird, but heck. Visited your pitas site, and saw my link there.....i_i watashi wa kandou shimashita. Hontou ni arigatougozaimasu. ^-^
I have nothing else to say anymore. Not like I ever do say anything good......
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 02:56 p.m.
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Monday, March 26, 2001 |
| Well², a day of school has passed. How did I do it? Wonder if ANYONE will read this. HI!!!!! Maybe I'll get a guestbook when I have time. Maybe I can use my Nicholas' Island guestbook. For people who are interested, here it is
Boy am I rusty on HTML. But it's not like I'm very good with it or what. Stupid mum who loves throwing away things, including my most beloved Computer Studies HTML notes. No, no scolding mum.
Let's just say I'm a little crazy. ^_~
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 09:19 p.m.
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Saturday, March 24, 2001 |
Signed up for pitas acct today, first entry!!!! *applause*
Made a new friend today, ureshii yo. Demo, forgot to ask what's her name.....^-^;;;;;;
Sa~, got lotsa tests, lotsa homeworks, but here I am doing this.
Neesan wa computer wo tsukaitai kara, sorede owatta.
Mata ne, minna san!
>^.^< nin-chan dozed off at 05:24 p.m.
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